Yep, I'm back.

Its been a while....And still nothing has changed. I was re-reading my posts here and.....I guess I always felt like my depression....was like never around? But, reading my old posts....just about everyone of them, I'm depressed or sad or lonely about something. Seriously....Think I need some professional help or what? I get to go back to work tomorrow....Not willingly. I was off the last 2 days and did NOTHING. It made me feel depressed (Wow, what a different emotion from you). My head hurts, I've been forcing myself to eat and all I've done is lay in bed with my laptop. Facebook is depressing and annoying as hell and Tumblr didn't really seem to bring me much joy today either. I probably should have done SOMETHING today, hung out with my friends or anything. But, its too late now. I get to fucking close like all this week, next week and the week after that. Wow, fuck you too managers. I mean...I get it. The parks' closing earlier, so with our shitty skeleton crew, there's pretty much an opener and a closer. Any in between shifts are super short and they won't give me because I'm full-time. Stupid fucking full-time. I want to take a shower and wash this feeling away. Wonder if it'll help. But, the thought of moving is....pointless? God, when did I become so emo. Next I'm going to tell someone I'm cold inside or some shit. Huff! Can't wait for G.I.S.H.W.H.E.S to start, maybe if I'm keeping my mind busy and doing scavenger stuff for Misha Collins, I won't be emo. I feel like eating......or maybe its sleeping. I dunno... I like how....The auto-correct here says, "emo", "Misha", and "Tumblr" are spelled wrong, but there's so red line thingy for "dunno" or the word "thingy" either. Weird... My head really hurts from staring at my computer screen all day. But, I really don't have anything else to do. Guess, I'll make myself go shower. Want to post here more....I know I type that every time and then don't do it. I want to post on here when I'm happy. Ha! That's be a different. Anyways~ Peace! <3