Since all I post is crappy crap here. Might at well add to it.

Seriously? They come back from "sweetest day" dinner. Which in my opinion is a stupid bullshit holiday for assholes like halmark to fucking make money. But, THEY come back from dinner and are fighting at getting at each other. Marriage is a joke, a lie and its bullshit. Fuck being single and fuck love and fuck couples. Happiness is a made up emotion to try and make life livable. But, it isn't and when you wake up and realizes there's no such thing, you see the world for what it really is. Shit. You see people for who they really are, Shit. The world is dark, disgusting, filthy, polluted, misleading. People lie, steal, kill, torture, hate, beat, and ruin any bit of light they find. The sooner you loose that light, the sooner you'll see the truth. And be miserable like the rest of the fucking world is.

Yep, I'm back.

Its been a while....And still nothing has changed. I was re-reading my posts here and.....I guess I always felt like my depression....was like never around? But, reading my old posts....just about everyone of them, I'm depressed or sad or lonely about something. Seriously....Think I need some professional help or what? I get to go back to work tomorrow....Not willingly. I was off the last 2 days and did NOTHING. It made me feel depressed (Wow, what a different emotion from you). My head hurts, I've been forcing myself to eat and all I've done is lay in bed with my laptop. Facebook is depressing and annoying as hell and Tumblr didn't really seem to bring me much joy today either. I probably should have done SOMETHING today, hung out with my friends or anything. But, its too late now. I get to fucking close like all this week, next week and the week after that. Wow, fuck you too managers. I mean...I get it. The parks' closing earlier, so with our shitty skeleton crew, there's pretty much an opener and a closer. Any in between shifts are super short and they won't give me because I'm full-time. Stupid fucking full-time. I want to take a shower and wash this feeling away. Wonder if it'll help. But, the thought of moving is....pointless? God, when did I become so emo. Next I'm going to tell someone I'm cold inside or some shit. Huff! Can't wait for G.I.S.H.W.H.E.S to start, maybe if I'm keeping my mind busy and doing scavenger stuff for Misha Collins, I won't be emo. I feel like eating......or maybe its sleeping. I dunno... I like how....The auto-correct here says, "emo", "Misha", and "Tumblr" are spelled wrong, but there's so red line thingy for "dunno" or the word "thingy" either. Weird... My head really hurts from staring at my computer screen all day. But, I really don't have anything else to do. Guess, I'll make myself go shower. Want to post here more....I know I type that every time and then don't do it. I want to post on here when I'm happy. Ha! That's be a different. Anyways~ Peace! <3

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So~ It's June 12, 2012 lol I resurrected my dino computer~ I've actually really missed it! ^_^ And I found/remembered I had one of these. Thought I was WAY over due on a post, don't cha think? XD Hmm...There's is absolutely no fucking difference since I last posted here. Pathetic....Still at Universal and hating it. Still haven't done a thing with my schooling. Still single and crushing on people who wouldn't give me the time of day. Seriously pathetic Kao. But, who cares? The world is suppose to end at the end of the year anyways~ Which I am actually counting on. When it doesn't though....I'm fucked. lol Well, I have work tomorrow. Maybe I'll try to post on here again. I'm missed my blog <3 <3 <3 Looking into starting a website for my cool photos soon, just cause I have no life and stuff. K~! Gonna head off to bed maybe! <3 Peace!!