been a while...

It's almost 2011. It's actually felt like a year this time....Normally its like, wow, it's already been a full year. This time....it feels like it. I'm kind of feeling lonely I guess......Still single and my parents are fighting again or still. Nice way to start the year, right? Anyways, I thought I'd make a review on the year for myself by myself.
Moments of this year: Had a gf, experienced a girl for the 1st time, drove to Titsuville by myself, started college and worked full time at the same time....And finished! Got a master's degree in Make up Artistry, grew stronger, got fatter, still lazy, reconnected with old friends, became more driven towards change, took a chance with a guy I liked and numerous girls, got shot down all times. Got my tongue pierced, got my first tooth pulled, got 3rd and 4th peircing in my ears. The house got robbed and a lot of my mother's stuff was stolen. Began hating the thought of marrage if it is all about fighting. Started really thinking about moving out of my parents' house. I think that's all I can think of at the moment.
I hope 2011 has more instore for me....Hope its mostly good. Hope its mostly up. Hope its mostly for the better. Please God, let me change who I am this coming year and become who I wish I could be. Talk to you next year blog.
<3 Kristina

omg

I just saw/found these two dogs on Craig's list and cried cause I want them so much! They needed to be mine. They were the dogs I always wanted, imagined, needed, loved and ugh! I want them! I shouldn't even go into it more or else I'll think of them every time I read this. They're brother and sister named Junior and Julie, rot mixes and they're big babies and so sweet. And I need to post one picture so I'll never forget them, even though I almost want to. God, I wish mom would let me have dogs and god I wish I lived on my own and could just have them forever!

Missing...

Just saw a bit of the past....I miss those days. It made me want to cry actually. It was before relationships, hate, mistrust, sex, faults or intelligents. Back when life was fun and I had friends and not a care in the world. No doubt, loss of innoccence or reason. I really do miss those times...Sometimes I wish I could go back to them.....But, would I feel the same about them knowing what I do now....I think I would. My heart aches for the way things were. Aches with all of the saddness, change, hurt, loss, distrust, and shit its been through. Yea, I really do miss those days.....
-Kow

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Thing's a pretty good. Yesterday was a horrible day, I was worse than depressed and just plain miserable all day. But, I'm doing better today~ ^_^ My new crush wrote back to me today and it made my heart skip. We were talking like crazy the other night and suddenly it stopped. I thought I had said something wrong....or freaked her out or something. But, we're talking again. She's so cute! Her name is Megan, she's asian and lives in New York. I wish she lived closer, I'd love to take her out. We have a lot in common. She's 19 and super smart~! Like.....Smart smart. XD Sorry, I'm rambling. Umm...I have a 4 day weekend~! ^_____^ I gave some shifts away and now I'm free for four days. I'm gonna go to T-mobile tomorrow and switch over phones hopefully~! And I found out why it hurt so bad to get my 3rd and 4th holes done in my ears. The dude gaudged them~! I like them, but now I have to find earrings that will fit. So, that's on the 'to do' list as well. Uhhh.....I think that's all....Cha, that's all. ^_^
<3 Peaces!

....So~

XD Leave it to J-Rock and Visual Kei to put me in a better mood. <3 <3 <3 I looked through a Cure magazine in the...... anyways, I was looking and I decided to do my make up like a J-Rocker and by a wig at the halloween store and at like a Japanese rock star all day and pretend not to speak english. Yay~ My name is Kei....or....Ruka....or Sei Sei....or...Aiyu....or Mashino. XD I'm the bass player and back-up singer for the non-exsist band called Osuru~! <3
<3 Peaces!!

Update~

We,, I'm done with school~~! I graduated a about a week ago! And I've done nothing since..... OH well. I'm kind of feeling depressed, even though I should be excited for tomorrow. I'm hanging out with Andrea and Ken tomorrow. ^_^ I got my 3rd and 4th holes done in my ears <3 I love them. Now I'm up to 8 total~ <3 9 if my tongue didn't heal.... damnit. The last crush ended bad and shitty and the newest started out great and is slowly turning to shit like the ones before. Oh well, loneliness here I'll be forever. Kiah is looking for a bf and doesn't talk to me at all anymore. She's finding God suddenly, I'm not saying that's a bad thing, I just think she's gonna come out of this a "changed" and straight person. Whatever....And whatever makes her happy. I just wish we could end our thing so I don't feel hurt about any of it anymore. But, we never talk. Like just now, found her on facebook, messaged her, oops she's getting off now sorry. Yea, okay. Like I said, whatever. I just want to end it. And I want something to fucking work for me. *sighs* Yay, depression when tomorrow could be awesome. Sad, Sad go away and don't come back another day.
-Me

OMG!

She is such a bitch!!!
Sick, not in the mood for her being such a bitch...
Oh, and Stephanie was a fail, why do I ever try. I should just give up.

So~ *blush*

I found this girl on a dating site and I really like her. She seems so smart and fun! And cute! >.< She lives in Orlando, she's single and has a job and I think is going to college. XD Her name is Stephanie. She's 19 and smarting than me it seems. lol I'm waiting to become certified and I think I'm going to message her. She's white, Lesbian (and out), she likes horro movies, Anne Rice, and and and and and and and and......ah~ *melts* I really hope she talks to me and we can hang out or something....and she likes me.....and we can date and be together and stuff. Eee~! *blush* Anyways~ Work tomorrow and Sunday. Work Monday and Tuesday, but no school~ ^____^ I'm gonna hang out with Chris Monday and Andrea and Ken on Tuesday!!!! I'm more excited about Tuesday. No offense Chris <3 I might get my tongue pierced again or my ears pierced more. I wanted to get ink, but I don't have enough money. *pouts* Guess, I'll go....to bed. And dream of~her~ lol. I'm such a dork and fall too damn fast. FML <3
Peaces! <3

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Class was actually pretty awesome tonight. Even though I didn't want to go in the beginning. We had a lady come from Disney to teach us Theatre make up. And she brought one of the guys who plays Jack Sparrow's at Disney!!! He's was so awesome and adorable. And gay... ^.^' And had a lot of tattos and piercings <3>

Peaces! <3

Bleh~

Stuck in the bathroom with an upset stomach and got work and school tomorrow already. Bleh.... Umm...Anything else new? Nope, not really. I'm ALMOST done with school. ^____^ That's a good thing. Umm... Been having depression problems here and there a lot lately. Like the whole, lonely stuff. Uhh... I <3>.<'

Peaces! <3

Hii~

Hiii Blog~

It's been a while~ ^_^ Umm...What's new? I went to the dentist about my broken tooth and made an appointment to have it pulled this Thursday. Hope everything goes alright. Umm...Been working on my project at school a lot. Turning a girl in my class into a Red Spitting Cobra. It's gonna be kick-ass. Umm.....Been working a lot.... I gotta work until 7pm tomorrow..... T.T I don't wanna work so late~~~ *whines* Oh well.... -.- *sigh* My leg itches..... My tooth hurts....I wanna eat my food and go to sleep....I gotta shower tomorrow morning... So~ I gotta get up at...........*mumbles* in at 11am....wanna be there around 10am.....gotta leave at 9:45am.... So~ if I wanna shower, I should get up at~ 7? Yea, 7am. Hurray for sleeping in? >.<' Yea... Oki, off to get fatter. lol

Peaces! <3

Hmm~

Today was okay. I'm waatching James and the Giant Peach now. I've been watching DragonBall Z lately. Ah~ Makes me feel all warm, fuzzy and young again. lol And I've started writing again. lol My DBZ story. Aww~ I've missed writing too. I gotta work at 7:30 tomorrow morning. Boo~ I get off at 3:30 and then its Monday and back to work and school. *sighs* Almost done. Its already half way through July, then I'll have August and September and then finished~! I need to pick a creature to create for my project. I just don't know what though. Its gotta be something like a half human/half something else. Hmm... I think I'm done with my update. Yep.... Off to watch Dracula Dead and Loving it. lol I heart this movie...Maybe I could do a Vampire. lol <3

Peaces! <3

Hmm~

I'm munchy..... I got new tongue rings~ They're cool~ I skipped class again today.... Yea, I'm bad.... I'm gonna make popcorn. Jack Harkness and Ianto Jones is fucking LOVE! <3>

Gonna go make popcorn~!
Peaces! <3

Uhh!

I hate this house! This place, these people, the air, the thought! I came home from school last night to find my mom is in the extra bedroom again, what the fuck is the problem now!? God, grow the fuck up and stop fucking fighting and acting like a 2 year old. I've slept all day and now plan to hide in my room ALL DAY to stay the fuck away from them. I don't care, I don't want to know, I'm not going to ask, just leave me the fuck out of it. I have enough to worry about. FUCK IT!

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Life is good right now. ^_^ I got school and work tomorrow....I fell asleep earlier and forgot I hadn't eaten yet. LOL My dad came in and was like... "Sure~ I go and get you food and you never eat it" And I was like, "What? I didn't eat yet?" He laughed and so did I. Awesome Fail. Ummm~ What else is there? I don't think anything...... Just wanted to update cause I haven't in a while. Guess I'll go. I'm watching Jackass.....It's so stupid, but I can't turn the channel. lol I wish I was this cute~ ^w^ ----->

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Eh

Feeling really emo suddenly. And self-loathing.....A hungry and fat. Fuck, this sucks. I want to eat all night tonight and not give a shit, but I know it'll be bad and when I think of eating I feel sick. I want to not eat anymore.... Wonder if I can do it. Probably not, I'll just be a fat fucking cow the rest of my life. Liking people who wouldn't even stop to see if I was alive on the side of the road. *Sighs* I hate living...... I want to sleep, eat and cry now. All at the same time. Not sure how to do it, but I'll figure it out. *humorless laugh* Damn, I'm so fucked in the head. Goodnight~ I think I'll go stuff my fat face now. Yea, Peaces!

ah~

I skipped class tonight and went and saw Iron Man 2. God, I'm so obsessed with Robert Downey Jr right now it's horrible. lol God, I love him. He's so fucking awesome and so fucking hot! And the movie was kick fucking ass too! lol Mmmm~ He's so tastey~ <3> I'm thinking of skipping tomorrow too, but I'm not 100%. Cause I skipped today and said I was flu-ish and it would work in saying I still was sick for tomorrow, but I'm just not sure. Cause I'm not sure what I'll do. I need to save up my money so I can buy dinner and possiblely a tattoo on Saturday when I hang out with Andrea and Ken. Oh shit..... And I need to buy her a birthday gift still too......shit. I could skip tomorrow and go shopping for the birthday gift and a father's day gift.....Hmmm~~ Guess I'll go now and go back to daydreaming of Tony Stark <3>

Peaces~! <3

It's been a while~

Hmm.... Not much is new. I started a diet today.... Well, it's more of not eating so much, eating healthier and trying to walk a lot more. I hope to drop a lot of weight and..... Like I want to enjoy it..... Like not hating it, so it'll be easier to continue it for good. Not like, losing weight and then going off the diet and eating crap and getting fat again. I want to fit in a Medium Shirt.... Yep, that's my goal. I don't really want to pick a number, so a size is better. I think..... lol Okay, I should head to bed or......something. I'm hungry, but its too late to eat, gotta keep my mind busy~

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Very tired.

Gonna head to bed.... Cause I Have to.......Good Night~ <3>

Uh.....

I really don't want to go to work. I'm super tired and I so don't want to work until 11pm tonight and then open tomorrow. Sucks.....Gotta start getting ready, go 25mins until I leave. *sighs* Peaces~ <3

This is me. People call me Kao, Cow, Axetina, Kei, Aiya, Umi and/or Kristina. I love Japan. So, I listen to Japanese music, read manga, watch anime, and do Japanese make up. I also love Korean, French, German, Turkish, Chinese, and some American music. I love doing make up, any kind. I'm currently in school at the Joe Blasco Make up East School, getting my Masters in Make Up Artistry. I'm 23 years old and pretty awesome. lol I love laughing and making people laugh, meeting new friends and not having to work. XD K, I think I'm done... Yeah. ^_^

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