Missing...

Just saw a bit of the past....I miss those days. It made me want to cry actually. It was before relationships, hate, mistrust, sex, faults or intelligents. Back when life was fun and I had friends and not a care in the world. No doubt, loss of innoccence or reason. I really do miss those times...Sometimes I wish I could go back to them.....But, would I feel the same about them knowing what I do now....I think I would. My heart aches for the way things were. Aches with all of the saddness, change, hurt, loss, distrust, and shit its been through. Yea, I really do miss those days.....
-Kow

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Thing's a pretty good. Yesterday was a horrible day, I was worse than depressed and just plain miserable all day. But, I'm doing better today~ ^_^ My new crush wrote back to me today and it made my heart skip. We were talking like crazy the other night and suddenly it stopped. I thought I had said something wrong....or freaked her out or something. But, we're talking again. She's so cute! Her name is Megan, she's asian and lives in New York. I wish she lived closer, I'd love to take her out. We have a lot in common. She's 19 and super smart~! Like.....Smart smart. XD Sorry, I'm rambling. Umm...I have a 4 day weekend~! ^_____^ I gave some shifts away and now I'm free for four days. I'm gonna go to T-mobile tomorrow and switch over phones hopefully~! And I found out why it hurt so bad to get my 3rd and 4th holes done in my ears. The dude gaudged them~! I like them, but now I have to find earrings that will fit. So, that's on the 'to do' list as well. Uhhh.....I think that's all....Cha, that's all. ^_^
<3 Peaces!

....So~

XD Leave it to J-Rock and Visual Kei to put me in a better mood. <3 <3 <3 I looked through a Cure magazine in the...... anyways, I was looking and I decided to do my make up like a J-Rocker and by a wig at the halloween store and at like a Japanese rock star all day and pretend not to speak english. Yay~ My name is Kei....or....Ruka....or Sei Sei....or...Aiyu....or Mashino. XD I'm the bass player and back-up singer for the non-exsist band called Osuru~! <3
<3 Peaces!!

Update~

We,, I'm done with school~~! I graduated a about a week ago! And I've done nothing since..... OH well. I'm kind of feeling depressed, even though I should be excited for tomorrow. I'm hanging out with Andrea and Ken tomorrow. ^_^ I got my 3rd and 4th holes done in my ears <3 I love them. Now I'm up to 8 total~ <3 9 if my tongue didn't heal.... damnit. The last crush ended bad and shitty and the newest started out great and is slowly turning to shit like the ones before. Oh well, loneliness here I'll be forever. Kiah is looking for a bf and doesn't talk to me at all anymore. She's finding God suddenly, I'm not saying that's a bad thing, I just think she's gonna come out of this a "changed" and straight person. Whatever....And whatever makes her happy. I just wish we could end our thing so I don't feel hurt about any of it anymore. But, we never talk. Like just now, found her on facebook, messaged her, oops she's getting off now sorry. Yea, okay. Like I said, whatever. I just want to end it. And I want something to fucking work for me. *sighs* Yay, depression when tomorrow could be awesome. Sad, Sad go away and don't come back another day.
-Me

OMG!

She is such a bitch!!!
Sick, not in the mood for her being such a bitch...
Oh, and Stephanie was a fail, why do I ever try. I should just give up.

So~ *blush*

I found this girl on a dating site and I really like her. She seems so smart and fun! And cute! >.< She lives in Orlando, she's single and has a job and I think is going to college. XD Her name is Stephanie. She's 19 and smarting than me it seems. lol I'm waiting to become certified and I think I'm going to message her. She's white, Lesbian (and out), she likes horro movies, Anne Rice, and and and and and and and and......ah~ *melts* I really hope she talks to me and we can hang out or something....and she likes me.....and we can date and be together and stuff. Eee~! *blush* Anyways~ Work tomorrow and Sunday. Work Monday and Tuesday, but no school~ ^____^ I'm gonna hang out with Chris Monday and Andrea and Ken on Tuesday!!!! I'm more excited about Tuesday. No offense Chris <3 I might get my tongue pierced again or my ears pierced more. I wanted to get ink, but I don't have enough money. *pouts* Guess, I'll go....to bed. And dream of~her~ lol. I'm such a dork and fall too damn fast. FML <3
Peaces! <3

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Class was actually pretty awesome tonight. Even though I didn't want to go in the beginning. We had a lady come from Disney to teach us Theatre make up. And she brought one of the guys who plays Jack Sparrow's at Disney!!! He's was so awesome and adorable. And gay... ^.^' And had a lot of tattos and piercings <3>

Peaces! <3